SHINE LIKE A STAR
It reminds me of, myself. I used to have problems in high school. I don’t have trouble recognizing letters and numbers etc but I do have trouble understanding essays, summarizing stories , understanding idioms even until now. Those big fat cross mark on my exam sheet especially on Bahasa Melayu paper, 0 mark, lovely words from my teachers. I will never forget.
Take your time and take it slowly;
As all you do will run its course
Sea of Strangers, Lang Leav.
The fact that I am still not accepting myself the way it is, I am not free - from the burden of needing you to accept me the way I am. Denying myself, the whole time. Judging myself worse than I judge other people. The feeling of not being enough, being perfect or being different haunts me. I couldn’t understand how to fix it or how to escape from it. I did my best to push it back, with smiles, musics, photography and everything but it never worked. I am still hiding behind these walls. I need to convince myself that each and everyone brought to this world with purpose. I need to keep reminding myself that the only way to live happily in this world is only to please my one and only Creator.
He made everything in this world, beautifully. Works perfectly and I believe that I am one of it. Maybe it’s time for me to knock down the walls that I have created for myself. I just need to find the right way and follow whatever leads me there.
There are times when you thought negatively about something, even yourself and your abilities. We waste our time complaining while the more useful option would be to fix what makes us complain. I don’t know what went wrong but I can feel that there’s something I need to fix.
So thankful to have these people around me. They wake me up every morning for fajr without fail even though I never asked for it. May God bless you guys.